morning babbles

i should be preparing for my Bangkok trip later this afternoon together with my buddies Dallen, Sheng and Riza and some other friends. But I am having a heavy heart right now. So many things happened the past few days that made it difficult for me to leave. I have been crying all night and my eyes are really puffy now. I am U-G-L-Y. Aaargh.

Laden because of the trivial fight with him last night, the shaky relationship, the uncertainty and doubt. It's really torturing me. I love him, yes. But sometimes, he goes off to show that he is smart, master of 'overthinking' and that's the start of the disagreement. But this morning he jokingly said he is resigning and he has a cancer. I don't know how to react with his super big news. How could you enjoy the travel with these thoughts in mind? But he later on took it back and said "Joke lang'. Grrrr. Ok, joke lang pala. Sayang ang luha at pawis ko. Hehe We are ok once again.

So back with this Bangkok trip. So I am going today but never told my parents about it until this morning. Call me OA but I want to hug my father for shocking him with this announcement. I feel so sorry for being too scatterbrained and having this devil-may-care attitude. He said few words "Nananghid ka sa Mama nimo?" and left. Upon hearing this, my tears were unstoppable. I will call him later on and APOLOGIZE. Btw, my mom just texted me saying there's nothing she can do to stop me. Bring home na lang na singsing! Hahah Love you Mang.

I wish I could enjoy Bangkok with these apprehensions and thoughts plus kulang ang baon kung pera. hehe
Bangkok, here i come!

morning babbles

i should be preparing for my Bangkok trip later this afternoon together with my buddies Dallen, Sheng and Riza and some other friends. But I am having a heavy heart right now. So many things happened the past few days that made it difficult for me to leave. I have been crying all night and my eyes are really puffy now. I am U-G-L-Y. Aaargh.

Laden because of the trivial fight with him last night, the shaky relationship, the uncertainty and doubt. It's really torturing me. I love him, yes. But sometimes, he goes off to show that he is smart, master of 'overthinking' and that's the start of the disagreement. But this morning he jokingly said he is resigning and he has a cancer. I don't know how to react with his super big news. How could you enjoy the travel with these thoughts in mind? But he later on took it back and said "Joke lang'. Grrrr. Ok, joke lang pala. Sayang ang luha at pawis ko. Hehe We are ok once again.

So back with this Bangkok trip. So I am going today but never told my parents about it until this morning. Call me OA but I want to hug my father for shocking him with this announcement. I feel so sorry for being too scatterbrained and having this devil-may-care attitude. He said few words "Nananghid ka sa Mama nimo?" and left. Upon hearing this, my tears were unstoppable. I will call him later on and APOLOGIZE.

I wish I could enjoy Bangkok with these apprehensions and thoughts. I hope I will.
Bangkok, here i come!

love to love

gone are the "alone" days. nevertheless, looking past, i was alone but not lonely. i was full of love from friends and family.

it's not an ordinary valentines day...i already have him. to share the love with. (ick, do i sound corny-cheesy?!)

February 13 - hang out sa bahay, ate chocolate cake, got a sneak peek on the movie of his "crush" and most importantly - his Frosty the Snowman video. Yep, he danced during his stint at C*ke,That was for a contest, where he was forced to dance. Geez. The video was uber fun and made us roll on the floor laughing.



After our lunch at Casa Ilonga, we watched a movie after "The Tooth Fairy". A movie for kids but we enjoyed it so much.



Craving for durian. So off we went to the streets to much on this heavenly. Winner ako. He gave up. Mas aswang yata ako sa durian. Hmp.

February 14 - Magsisimba kami. Best way to celebrate this heart's day! yeehaw.

Love love love.
Happy Valentines Day Everyone!